Boleh ke?

Since it's the time of the year where we all sit back and reflect to who we want to be next year, and yes, I did my fair share of reflecting on resolutions I'd make to usher in year 2011. I bet we all- I personally don't keep to resolutions I make every year. Therefore, my fantastical brain managed to come up with good shit I can actually (or maybe) live up to.

And so,

Realistic resolutions that I'll try to accomplish for year 2011.

1. Gain 5kg

People who are close to me have been complaining me being stick thin. I had a classmate this year who actually thought I was anorexic ; signaling maybe after all I do look gravely ill. Someone else told me he didn't want to hug the fattest kid from Sudan to sleep next time. Mum reminded me of how unflattering I look in certain clothes. I shrunk a size and I'm bumless. That sounded really critical. But I would be contented to put weight everywhere or anywhere but definitely not my face and my tummy.

2. Grow my hair long prefably way past my uhm.. chest?

I failed miserably growing beautiful long locks past these few years thanks to giving in to the persuasions of my few previous hairdressers. And I'm also trying to grow my fringe way past my nose.

3. Be a better girl/ person with all that I've learnt this year.

I'm am currently stuck between two very contradicting personalities trying to outdo one another - an optimistic realist and a pessimistic idealist. Both generating a very haywiring effect on the things that I do or personally feel. There are a few theories which I am yet to test but judging from unnecessary experiences that I could have avoided, I find myself stuck within my zone again. I don't need somebody to come tell me how life would be continuosly laced with God's provision, protection or guidance or simply everything happens in His will. That's consolation we tell ourself when bad things happens. I'm up to grow spiritually but I want to be proven right in things that I believe . Not just theories I read or hear.
A lot of chances laid right before me that I've missed out this year. I want to stop taking things and people who matter to me for granted.

4. Date myself?

Another important criteria that's being left out for a long time. Enough of having people being bastards and bitches to me; and me being a bitch to myself or to somebody else. Maybe it's time to find out what I truly want to see and have in my life. Sometimes you've gotta learn how to love yourself before you can actually have someone to love you back. In a way, you know how you want to be treated by people, because you first treat yourself with dignity and respect. Then no one, not even him, can bring you down. And just sometimes, you've gotta learn how to love yourself because nobody will love you the way you want to be loved; the very moment they walk out of your life.


I wanted to add in more like how I would actually make the effort to study harder next year, be a filial daughter, make sure I spend more time praying and that whole load of rubbish I'll never do. but I think for the moment these four resolutions are decent enough to create that little bit of push for a difference next year.

"... I'm a mess in a dress,
can't show up on time,
even if it would save my life ...."

According To You - Orianthi

Stumbled.

Dear Joanna Ooi,

Why does it have to take this long sometimes?

"...Gotta pick myself up, where do I start?
Tell me what do I do when it all falls apart.."

When It All Falls Apart- The Veronicas

"...What if I stumble, what if I fall?
What if I lose my step and I make fools of us all
Will the love continue?
When my walk becomes a crawl
What if I stumble, and what if I fall?
What if I stumble, what if I fall?..."

What If I Stumble?- DC Talk

Hari ini aku kelam betul.

So many things left undone and unsettled.

Itu la procrastinate lagi.

Celaka.

"...I dont know where to turn

I can't leave you waiting

But I can't stay and watch the city burn

Watch it burn

Cause I'll try but its so hard to believe

I'll try but I can't see what you see

I'll try, I'll try... "

I'll Try - Jesse McCartney (Peter Pan2's OST)

Rain, rain go away, don't ever come again another day

Sarawak Beckons (Part 1)

Date: 29th September-3rd October 2009

Occasion: Celebrating grandpa's 80th birthday, A good time to skip school because I am yet to finish my mountanious pile of History work.

LCCT

Saw this giant sized chuppa chups lolly in a store. Good grief, I can go on licking them for like the whole entire year!

We travelled from Ipoh to LCCT at 4am, waited like a dungu at 7.30am to catch our flight in LCCT to Kota Kinabalu at 12.30pm, another flight to Brunei at 6pm, reaching at 6.45pm then travel by car to Limbang.

Pretty clouds at sunset.

We arrived safely at the Brunei International Airport after a 30 mins flight in Kota Kinabalu.

And guess what?

I missed the chance of bumping into Wu Chun of Fahrenheit just by a few minutes!!

That joker's HK flight landed at the same time as us.

My aunty saw him hiding behind his mountanious luggages as he tried to escape being chased by a mob of starstruck old uncles and aunties.

Limbang

Limbang is around 1 or 2/4 of Ipoh. A very laid back and safe town where everybody knows everyone

We have house on stilts along the river across the townsquare. How cool is that?

Talk about malls. Limbang has only one and they have not a freaking cinema around.

My former alma mater when I was in Year 2.- SRB St. Edmund. My mum and the rest of her siblings went to this school too.

But when it comes to food. I would suggest you to run elsewhere. You got no mamak, no Penang laksa, no kai si hor fun. Even a decent bihun sup lari entah ke mana.

You got stuff like above which I dont know what do you call it.

And it's tasteless.

This is a Sarawakian staple. Kolo Mee

Notice the white tall bottle in the middle? That's vinegar. And I was trying to make a connection to what the hell you use vinegar for to eat noodles. They have that kinda stuff on every table I saw.